jack,
this birthday has managed to sneak up on me. i think life has gotten more busy that i ever anticipated it to, but i also think that i purposely try not to think about how quickly you are growing--and you are growing so fast; always trying to be a big kid, but at the same time you are still just this little boy who can both exasperate and melt my heart in the same breath.
i know you are trying so hard to be big, but there is a part of me that wants you to realize that you are still little and have all the time in the world to be big. however, i also know that i have to let you grow and learn, and maybe even let you go just a little bit. in turn, there are moments when i wish i could just freeze you, me, us, whatever it is we are doing just so i don't forget them, because like i said, life has gotten really busy, we get lost in our daily routine, and then the moment has come and gone. it's true, just like that you went from this beautiful little newborn into this person, and i'll admit it is sometimes hard to wrap my head around.
i love you more than i can ever put into words. i am so proud of the boy you've become. you are such an inquisitive, intelligent, happy and motivated child. and even though you are growing quicker than i ever imagined, in my mind you will always be that beautiful little newborn that came into my life on october 5th at 5:09am.
i love you to the moon and back....
love always, mama
